Well spent money!

I’ve been told that I spend my access money on the wrong kind of thing here in life O.O I have no idea what they mean by that! I had some extra money this month for example, so I bought these:

Folk har sagt mig att jag spenderar mina pengar på fel saker här i livet O.O Jag förstår inte alls vad de menar med det! Till exempel den här månaden, då hade jag lite extra pengar, så jag köpte detta:

The box is all the 7 Harry Potter books and there is also 3 English dictionaries as well as 4 books in Swedish ^^

Boxen innehåller alla sju Harry Potter-böckerna, det finns även 3 engelska ordböcker samt att fyra av böckerna är på Svenska ^^

Fanfic…

I’ve started to read some fanfic… Some of it is really good, but for the most part I’m like;

Jag har börjat läsa lite fanfic… En del är riktigt bra, men för det mesta sitter jag såhär;

But it’s still fun, until they go way overboard and I’m just confused O.O It feels as if people don’t plan a head when they write… Like they have three, four things they really want to happen but they have no connection between them and due to that everything becomes a mess… And why does Hermione always get pregnant?! Can someone explain that to me? Well, we’ll see if the one I’m reading now will end up the same way…

Det är fortfarande ganska roande, tills de går totalt över styr och jag bara blir förvirrad O.O Det känns lite som att folk inte planerar i förväg när de skriver… Det är ungefär som att de har tre, fyra saker de verkligen vill ska ske men de har inte dragit ordentliga trådar mellan dom och allt därmed bara spårar ur… Och varför blir Hermione alltid gravid?! Kan någon förklara det för mig?  Men men, får se ifall den jag läser nu är likadan…

Peoples fear of Snape

As most people who know me knows, I’m very fond of Harry Potter and all stuff involving that… Yes, my dream is to own a living green pygmy puff as well as a golden Hippogriff but that’s not what I was going to discuss right now. What I was thinking about is this huge internet war about Snape. Is he good, is he bad, is he better then James Potter, did he deserve Lily or not…? Most of the time people end up discussing his behaviour towards his students, especially Harry, and saying that it shows that he was a bad man. I incline, and I do that with a point of view that I have not yet seen in any of these discussions.

When I read the books I got the impression that Severus Snape was depressed, he was drowning in self guilt and hated life but was set on not losing completely in the end. Have you ever been in a depression? Do you know how it feels to try and live through all the feelings that never let go of you when your deep, deep down in that shit? You try to live but in your chest you can feel that the only thing you wanna do is to sink to the ground and lay there ’till you die? You try to make rational decisions in that condition!
If a depressed person see what seems to be a quick fix, they’ll most probably try it. And most likely that “quick fix” made the shitty hole they’re swimming in bigger because they did not think through the consequences. It may not seem to be a good idea to, for example, put naked pictures of your self on the internet because you miss your ex… But for someone who is depressed that may look like a fucking great idea, free adoration in an instant! No lonely feelings any more! But well, that’s not the only result the pictures can have… Same goes for Snapes behaviour.

Most people seems to think that just because he’s part of a fictional story he can just be one way and act one way. But characters in good books ain’t that way. They are so close to real humans as possible. They lie, they put up facades, they change, they have double feelings about stuff even though it may not be written like that in plain words. But maybe you have to know what a depression is to understand what Snape makes me feel… And I mean true depressed, not really sad or something like that. It’s a huge difference. I get pissed off on people saying they’re depressed, are having angst, have an mental illness, having an eating disorder or anything like that when they’re in fact just nervous or stressed >.<

Whit this, I’m not saying that Snape was a saint. He acted, in deed, like a dick but I think I can understand why. It was his way of trying to deal with him self, while he was still so angry and depressed that he was mean to people around him.

I hate when people say stuff like that to me!

This is my exact reaction too those scary stuffs…